lyrics from jackson that makes me smile :)

smile , though your heart is aching .. smile, even though it's breaking ..
when there are clouds in the sky , you'll get by...

if you smile , with your fear and sorrow ... smile and maybe tomorrow , you'll find that life is still worthwhile if you just ....... SMILE

light up your face with gladness , hide every trace of sadness .. although a tear may be ever so near !
that's the time you must keep on trying , smile , what's the use of crying .. you'll find that life is still worthwhile . if you just smile ..

smile , though your heart is aching .. smile , even though it's breaking ... when there are clouds in the sky , you'll get by ...

big ?

i'm a big girl , in a big world .. but it isn't a big thing if you leave me i will miss you much :'(

broken

tell me her name i wanna know the way she looks and where you go .. i need to see her face , i need to understand , why you and i came to an end ? tell me again i wanna hear who broke my faith in all these months .. who lays with you at night while i'm here all alone remembering when i was your own ..
i let you go , i let you fly , why do i keep on asking why ? i let you go , now that i found a way to keep somehow more than a broken vow ..
tell me the words i never said , show me the tears you never shed , gimme the touch that one you promised to be mine or has it vanished for all time ...
i close my eyes and dream of you and i , and then i realize .. there's more to love than only bitterness and lies ... i close my eyes ..
i'd give away my soul , to hold you once again and never let this promise end ..

what i feel

long time ago , i was breaking with my boyfriend named john .
it causes by ... he's bothering me .. i don't know why did he does it . really broken inside ! he never reply my wall , mention and never greet me first on twitter or facebook ! he always greet another girls ! so sad .. and you know ? i was running away from my home but i'm back again --" i'm so despreated

really !?

this story is a true story about me .
last moth ago , me and my boyfriend was breaking our relationship cause he did it again : "busy and forgotten me" so i got angry with him . we didn't talk for two weeks , i thought that i must found someone new ..
in twitter i have 5 new friends , they are beatlemania like me . i love someone from them and i thought that he loves me too cause he always call me " baby " . his face is so handsome , more thank my ex , really ! and his voice is wow ! i like his voice ! before i sleep i always hear his voice sing backbird song . day after day , i can forget about my ex and thought about this new boy . and when i saw his facebook , i saw his mutual friends . my friend called tirza is on mutual friends . i asked him "how can you know tirza ?" he said "oh , she's my friend" me "wow , she's my friend in my school"
in the school ,
i asked tirza "you know palk van tony kojansow ? that called uti ?"
tirza said "yeah , i know ! how can you know uti ?"
me "he's a beatlemania like me and i think i love him"
tirza "what !?"
me "i love him ! emm , you know what is his real name ?"
tirza "putri kojansow"
me "who is putri ? i asked about ... uti ? plak van tony kojansow !"
tirza "yeah ! putri ! the real name is putri kojansow ! a girl !!!"
me "what !? he's a girl ? i mean she's a girl ?! please don't kidding !"
tirza "i'm not kidding i'm not lying its true !"
okay , it's hurting me so deep ! i wanna cry hear what did tirza says and uti says sorry to me and what should i do ? i must forgive uti cause it's not her fault , it's mine . hahaha ..
now me and my ex is start a new relationship again , i thought he's my endless love :)

he has forgotten me

it's only been a week and a half ...
but he was so in love with me . i thought it was going to be so easy to watch him leave for college and get over him . when i went home after seeing him for the last time i realized that i was much more upset than i had expected , but all i could think was at least he will always miss me more than i miss him . i didn't love him , there were few times when i wanted to not be around him . but he always wanted to see me , he was much more upset to watch me walk into my house than i was that last day . a week later , he has a new girlfriend , and i haven't heard from him . he was the one who wanted to keep in touch , yet he's the one who ended all communication . i miss him like crazy , and i wasn't expecting to . randomly during the past few days since i found out about the new girl , i suddenly get upset and start crying . i don't know how they do it , but guys can get over a girl in a snap .

love

i love you . what is the meaning of love ? is it you must make someone you love cry ? or is it you must make someone's heart is breaking ? or what ? i need an answer