lyrics from jackson that makes me smile :)

smile , though your heart is aching .. smile, even though it's breaking ..
when there are clouds in the sky , you'll get by...

if you smile , with your fear and sorrow ... smile and maybe tomorrow , you'll find that life is still worthwhile if you just ....... SMILE

light up your face with gladness , hide every trace of sadness .. although a tear may be ever so near !
that's the time you must keep on trying , smile , what's the use of crying .. you'll find that life is still worthwhile . if you just smile ..

smile , though your heart is aching .. smile , even though it's breaking ... when there are clouds in the sky , you'll get by ...

big ?

i'm a big girl , in a big world .. but it isn't a big thing if you leave me i will miss you much :'(

broken

tell me her name i wanna know the way she looks and where you go .. i need to see her face , i need to understand , why you and i came to an end ? tell me again i wanna hear who broke my faith in all these months .. who lays with you at night while i'm here all alone remembering when i was your own ..
i let you go , i let you fly , why do i keep on asking why ? i let you go , now that i found a way to keep somehow more than a broken vow ..
tell me the words i never said , show me the tears you never shed , gimme the touch that one you promised to be mine or has it vanished for all time ...
i close my eyes and dream of you and i , and then i realize .. there's more to love than only bitterness and lies ... i close my eyes ..
i'd give away my soul , to hold you once again and never let this promise end ..

what i feel

long time ago , i was breaking with my boyfriend named john .
it causes by ... he's bothering me .. i don't know why did he does it . really broken inside ! he never reply my wall , mention and never greet me first on twitter or facebook ! he always greet another girls ! so sad .. and you know ? i was running away from my home but i'm back again --" i'm so despreated

really !?

this story is a true story about me .
last moth ago , me and my boyfriend was breaking our relationship cause he did it again : "busy and forgotten me" so i got angry with him . we didn't talk for two weeks , i thought that i must found someone new ..
in twitter i have 5 new friends , they are beatlemania like me . i love someone from them and i thought that he loves me too cause he always call me " baby " . his face is so handsome , more thank my ex , really ! and his voice is wow ! i like his voice ! before i sleep i always hear his voice sing backbird song . day after day , i can forget about my ex and thought about this new boy . and when i saw his facebook , i saw his mutual friends . my friend called tirza is on mutual friends . i asked him "how can you know tirza ?" he said "oh , she's my friend" me "wow , she's my friend in my school"
in the school ,
i asked tirza "you know palk van tony kojansow ? that called uti ?"
tirza said "yeah , i know ! how can you know uti ?"
me "he's a beatlemania like me and i think i love him"
tirza "what !?"
me "i love him ! emm , you know what is his real name ?"
tirza "putri kojansow"
me "who is putri ? i asked about ... uti ? plak van tony kojansow !"
tirza "yeah ! putri ! the real name is putri kojansow ! a girl !!!"
me "what !? he's a girl ? i mean she's a girl ?! please don't kidding !"
tirza "i'm not kidding i'm not lying its true !"
okay , it's hurting me so deep ! i wanna cry hear what did tirza says and uti says sorry to me and what should i do ? i must forgive uti cause it's not her fault , it's mine . hahaha ..
now me and my ex is start a new relationship again , i thought he's my endless love :)

he has forgotten me

it's only been a week and a half ...
but he was so in love with me . i thought it was going to be so easy to watch him leave for college and get over him . when i went home after seeing him for the last time i realized that i was much more upset than i had expected , but all i could think was at least he will always miss me more than i miss him . i didn't love him , there were few times when i wanted to not be around him . but he always wanted to see me , he was much more upset to watch me walk into my house than i was that last day . a week later , he has a new girlfriend , and i haven't heard from him . he was the one who wanted to keep in touch , yet he's the one who ended all communication . i miss him like crazy , and i wasn't expecting to . randomly during the past few days since i found out about the new girl , i suddenly get upset and start crying . i don't know how they do it , but guys can get over a girl in a snap .

love

i love you . what is the meaning of love ? is it you must make someone you love cry ? or is it you must make someone's heart is breaking ? or what ? i need an answer

raibow

like a rainbow above you

Two voices, one song

It's so rare to find a friend like you
Somehow when you're the sky is always blue
The way we talk
The things you say
The way you make it all ok
And how you know
All of my jokes
But you laugh anyway ..

Chorus:

If I could wish for one thing
I take the smile that you bring
Wherever you go in this world I'll come along
Together we dream the same dream
Forever I'm here for you, you're here for me

Oh ooh oh
Two voices, one song

And anywhere you are you know I'll be around
And when you call my name I'll listen for the sound

*Repeat Chorus*

Oh ooh oh
Two voices, one song

jika tiba sang waktu

cintaku hanya untukmu
sayangku hanya untukmu
jangan campakkan
jangan menjauh

hatiku hanya untukmu
hatiku ada di hatimu
jangan campakkan
jangan menjauh

jika tiba sang waktu
kau akan arasakan
indahnya pelukku

jika tiba sang waktu
kau akan butuhkan
kehadiranku
untuk selalu di sisimu

mencoba mengulang waktu
tetapi itu tak mungkin
kembali lagi
hadir disini ..

childhood

childhood ? emm , i really love my childhood .
cause when i was a kid , i dont know what is LOVE and of course i never cry because of LOVE

sakit

WAAAAAAAAAA gag tau kenapah kuping gue sakit . sakit bangett sampe hati gue teriris (?)

bawa mobil ft joe ? who scared ?

hari ituh , hari minggu ( kalao gag salah )
ini terjadi sudah beberapa minggu lalu dibulain mei . gue , oddey dan fina pergi ke BSD Plaza untuk membantu oddey mencarikan kado untuk pacarnyah . sekalian si fina juga pen caricari kado buat pacarnyah yang ultah 30 mei getoo (?)

nah , kita menjelajahi isi bsd plaza . mulai dari toko kado , toko baju , dan tokotoko lainnyah ( apadah ) tadinyah , oddey berencana ingin mencari lampu ( yang kea lampu rel kereta ituuh ) tetapi , saat kita masuk kedalam toko yang kita sangka menjual barang ituh ... akh ! anda tau apa yang terjadi ?! gag kenapahkenapah tuh bweek !!
hm lanjut ..
ok saat kita tanya ke mbakmbak penjaganyah , tenyata barang ituh sudah dibeli orang huhuhu .. yodahlah lebe amat ah cari laen ajah susah bener . nah udah nih , kita keluar nyari barang laen . saat ituh kita ke toko sport adidas factory outlet . kita udah caricari sepatu yang yah harganyah gag telalu mahal . saat udah ketemu yang pas dihati , si oddey bilang "eh , ukuran kaki andre berapa yah ?" ahestagaaaaa .. membuat gua ama fina stress !! udah capekcapek taunyah beini ish -,-

akhirnyah kita pindah ketempat baju sport . disana kita becandabecanda , nyuruh oddey ngasi andre baju renang bikini lah , baju ketat lah apalah parah pokoknyah ! dan akhirnyah gue menemukan baju yang harganyah Rp. 119.000,- yah bagus cuma mahal . tapi tenyata setelah dilihatlihat baju ituh kena diskon jadi Rp. 50.000,- ( gag tau diskon berapa % )
oddey pun memutuskan untuk membeli baju ituh .

setelah ituh , kita bertiga berjalan ke suatu tempat yang menjual barangbarang scrapbook . mahalmahal gilak !! stress liatnyah -,- yodah akhirnyah kita disitu cuma beli kertas alas , kertas untuk hias , dan beberapa hiasan . sisanyah kita beli di gramed skalian peralatan buat scrapbooknyah .

habis ituh , menaiki mobil gue , kita ke teko mampir bentar gue juga lupa ngapain kita kesana udah lah gag penting . trus kita nelpon joe ( nah ini dia orang yang gue sebut di judul haha ) untuk ikut kita ngerjain scrapbook buat kado ultah andre .. dan diapun mau .

kita ngerjain scrapbook ituh dirumah gue . joe dateng dengan mobil jazznyah yang berwarna kuning ( gag penting ) trus mulai deh kita ngerjain . sebenernyah , joe samaskali TIDAK BERGUNA hehehe dia cuma ngebrantakin dan gag guna lah pokoknyah . tapi dia bikinin lambang joancafi sih hehe kita udah lama kerjainnyah , udah capek , dan kita berpikir untuk melanjutkannyah besokbesok . yodah , kita bertiga ngobrol bentar tentang mau bikin videoclip ( sampai skarang gag jadijadi ) dan sebagainyah . lalu , stefina mau dijemput keluarganyah , dia mau makan gag tau dimana , abis gag penting (?) dan akhirnyah tinggal gue , oddey , joe . ok , skarang kita mulai lomba mobilnyah . sebenernyah gag lomba juga , maen asalasal doang z nah joe bawa mobil jazz nyah dan gue ama oddey bedua naek mobil corolla gue . trus kita kebelakang , ternyata dan ternyata diportal ish malesin abis !! truss , gue disuruh joe mundur .. gue mundur . baru joe mundur juga . eh setelah dia mundur , dia ngacir dan gue ikutin dari blakang . sok ngebut dia udah gituh gag pakae lampu sen kalao belok zz trus taunyah , di portal lagi ish ngeselin amat nih puspita loka !! yodah , gue mundur , mundur belok gituh . mundur jauuuh bener , gue kira joe akan melakukan hal yang sama . gue tungguin .. tapi kok dia gag nongolnongol yah ? gue balik ke tempat tadi , eh dia udah gag ada . gue ama oddey nyarinyari gituh , gue takuit dia nyasar ( kan dia penghuni baru ) hehe akhirnyah kita nyari ampe kedeket rumah joe , kita liat ke rumah joe , lebih dekat , lebih dekaaaat , dan ish tenyata joe udah pulang ! dia lagi kesusahan naikin mobil hahaha .. yodah gue turun gue bantu deh gue parkirin mobil dia , gue tabrakin deh ( gag lah ) nah abis ituh gue nganter odi ke tempat ojek . abis ituh gue sendiri di mobil , takut udah gelap . trus gue liat ada anjing ( takut bangett gua ama anjing padahal gue di dalem mobil ) eh gue geser ke kiriiiii banget , nyerempet mobil yang lagi parkir deh haha bodo amat lah sypa suruh markirin mobil disitu (?) nah udah deh . dan akhirnyah sampai sekarang , KADO ODDEY BUAT ANDRE gag dikasi ampe skarang . orang gag dilanjutin scrapbooknyah hahaha sekian

fo my lovely boyfriend JohnD

i love you , really really love you .
more than you know .
im sorry if i always make you mad , angry , or whatef .
i didnt mean to hurt you .

im sorry fo blaming you
fo everything i just couldnt do
and ive hurt mysefl ,
by hurting you ..

tai lo semua

john d hatumesen , katon adi nugroho , jablaiii , dkk